Thursday, April 14, 2011

L is for LOSER

I have had several goals in my life.  None of them have been anything one would consider fascinating or world changing, but I did have them.  Not all of my goals have been reached but that’s ok because, as life happened, I realized that a lot of those goals were either unimportant or I simply lost interest.  Then again, most of them were probably achieved on a smaller scale once I reached the ‘become a mommy’ goal because I poured at least 210% into our daughters.  Now that the girls are out on their own, I have new goals.  And they are pretty darn boring.  Things like redecorating the two now empty bedrooms; remodeling the master bathroom (don’t get me started on this one); finish scrapbooking 27 years worth of pictures; and so on.  But my biggest goal right now is to be a LOSER.

Seriously, my current dream/goal/hope/aspiration is to be a LOSER.  Yes folks, I want to be a LOSER of all this excess, unwanted, unhealthy weight that I had such a freaking great time putting on.  I want to be the kind of LOSER who loses all this weight and then completely forgets where she put it so it can never come back again.  It is this desperate desire that has led me to develop my own plan of attack that will, hopefully, enable me to reach my goal of LOSER.  I have taken the things that make sense from the Atkins diet and Suzanne Somers’ plan, combined them and created ASS off.  Part of my plan is not allowing the scale to dampen my spirits or thwart my efforts (one because my current weight number is a bad, bad number and B because if it doesn't go down fast, my mind tells me to go ahead and eat whatever I want to because it's never going to happen--even though I know that the days of eating whatever I want to and staying thin are LONG gone--this is called total sabotage.).  The other part of the plan is my attitude.  I know that I will not be successful without truly wanting it.  If I am NOT finally tired of carrying around the excess weight, it will either stay or go and come back.  If I am NOT finally ready to turn away from bad habits, they will reappear.  If I am NOT finally ready to make healthy choices, I will shorten my life.  

I remember exactly when I started putting the 83 pounds I lost in 2009 right back on---it was December of that same year and there was this homemade oatmeal raisin cookie and I thought to myself, "Hey, these are so good and one scrumptiously delicious cookie will not hurt."  And the thought behind that thought was, "Don't do it, it will spark your sweet tooth and you won't stop."  My actions went with the first thought.  The one in the forefront.  The sabotage thought.  So I ate that wonderfully delightful cookie.  I would tell you how many more I ate, but I lost count because, after that first tantalizingly tasty bite of that first cookie my thought was, "SUGAR!  Where have you been all of my life?!"  That was the beginning of the end.  

And now, I'm right back where I started.  But I do not care.  It's a new day and I'm hoping this is a true new attitude.  We shall see as time goes on.  I really do hope it's for real this time because this Sisyphus crap is getting old. 

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  1. I love your ASS plan for a LOSER!

  2. There's nothing I can say since I'm guilty of losing, gaining and repeat.

  3. If I can't see it, know there's none of it in my house, and don't go looking for it....well, it's a little bit easier. Also, if I plan the meals ahead and don't skip any one of them, I don't tend to binge. Being "good" is especially hard when Hubby isn't! Shouldn't husbands go on diets too when the wife really has to???? I'm mean really, what's the point of trying to resist temptation when someone is gobbling it up right under your nose?

  4. I love your new program ASS! It sounds like you have a great attitude to make it to your goal of loser, and that is what it takes. It is such a mental thing. You have to strong in your head first, and it sounds like you have it! Good luck, and I am working right with you!


  5. Cindy- Thanks! I just hope it works!

    Barb-I'm just getting sick of that roller coaster...and I hope I'm sick enough of it that this is IT!

    Rosemary- Hubs could stand to lose some (not nearly as much as I) but he's not interested. I keep telling him to keep his sugary treats out of the house because I'm like you on not seeing it and knowing it's not in the house making it easier!

    Susan- I hope it works. My mind seems to sabotage at every turn...hopefully, not this time!

  6. I'm all for your ass plan. Maybe I will join you. Because interestingly enough, I could definitely stand to lose that exact amount. I was going to say I could be your ass buddy, but it didn't exactly sound appropriate...
    GO FOR IT EN!! You can do it. :)

  7. Ha! I'm right there with you. Lost 20 lbs in 2008, reconnected with my sweetie on Facebook -- we knew each other in college, dated, went our separate ways and Facebook brought us back together in 2009. Now we're married and guess what???? yepper!! darn it's hard getting that belly out of my way in order to tie my shoes. Wish I could say it is because I am pregnant!!!

  8. Jessica- LOL!!! Ass buddies...I can hardly type for are a riot! Thank you so much for your encouragement! Maybe we can help each other via encouragement and support?!

    Karen- Oh yes, I know all about the shoe tying---it's almost a workout just doing that! Maybe some of us need to form a support group?

  9. Ass off! That is well funny you nutbag!

    I like the idea of getting rid of your scales..... it seems logical that it will stop you focusing on the odd pound here or there, and make you focus on how you feel.

    Nice one and good luck me dear!

  10. Anni-Thank you so much! Yes, ASS off- I call it that mostly because you could use it as a table for a tea party the way it looks right now. LOL

  11. Sure sounds to me like you're serious about this. And I do think that Suzanne Somers and Atkins probably make it more tolerable than the others, mostly because they understand sugar cravings and what causes them and how to get rid of them.

    But I still keep semi-sweet chocolate chips in the house. I know, they're probably evil, but somehow I can have a few of those and they're satisfying without getting completely out of control.
    usually. Milk chocolate, on the other hand, would send me into a downward spiral!

    Maybe you should pretend I didn't write that second paragraph.

  12. you go girlfriend...I am cheering you on to be a loser!!

  13. I'm trying to be a LOSER too.. 17lb down so far... difficult when Husband wants to cheat...ALL THE TIME...

    No homemade cookies in this house for a while..or cake.. or chocolate.. oh its a sad existence!!!

  14. love your plan lol....i'm in,and I'm *gasp* walking 2kms a day.

  15. Your post really hit home for me. I am at the highest weight I've ever been at and it's depressing. I've decided to do something about it even though I'm not sure what the "something" is. I've started by cutting way back on diet soda - I've lost 2.5 pounds - don't know if it's related or coincidence but I'm like you - I need some kind of immediate gratification or I'll give up quick.

    Your doing a great job on the challenge!!

  16. Judy- Your are too funny! I have the Atkins bars that I eat if I absolutely can't stand it and have to have something sweet. Other than that, nothing. And I'm doing far.

    Melody-Thank you! I need some cheering especially after having to go out tonight and feeling like the biggest whale on the face of the earth.

    Clare-YES! 17 down = AWESOME!!! My dad made those cookies that I kept on eating and eating and eating...boy, were they good!

  17. Blogged-Tucker and I are walking 2 miles every day but I'm about to increase that to 3---Tucker is NOT going to like that though. LOL

    Donna-This is the highest weight for me too. It's the most frustrating thing I've ever had to do. 2.5 pounds is gone and that's GREAT! Keep going! We're all in this together!

  18. L is for lovely, which you are!
    I loved your new program ASS may have something there! You might have a new business adventure.
    Take care my friend,

  19. ASS sounds good to me. You just go on ahead with your badASS self and be a Loser! Maybe I can get some inspiration from you and your success. Because you sound pretty determined. Wishing you godspeed!

  20. I love your plan and you are definitely inspiring me to get off my butt and do something about my own excess weight. I need to keep healthy to be able to look after Jack and I am not as fit as I should be :)

  21. Shawn- Thank you so much! You are so sweet and encouraging! I really appreciate it!

    ts- Thank you!

    lyndy-Looks like we are all in good company! Perhaps we'll all be successful by sending encouraging words to one another such as yous!

  22. I, too, need to take action to lose weight. I'm happy to try with you...we can be each other's conscience across the seas ;)

    Thank you for your kind words and thoughts this week. Romeo's death has motivated Linda in a big way to make a difference to the plight of the animals at the shelter where he was originally taken might enjoy reading about what she has been up to both on her blog and her website @ The Squashed Tomato.


    Des xoxo

  23. Desiree-Sounds like a great idea! I am following Linda now and I really like her website!



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