Saturday, May 14, 2011
Journaling: Childhood Experiences
So, we move on to Day 4 of Mari's 27 Days of Journaling to Health and Happiness. (Remember: I have extended the giveaway for this book to tonight at midnight due to the Blogger mess).
Day 4 was a bit revealing. This was a day of traveling back to my childhood, recalling a time that was difficult and then describing the detailed scene in my journal. The next step was to write what I was thinking and feeling. Finally, I wrote what that experience made me believe about myself.
Whoa. THAT belief came from THAT experience in my CHILDHOOD? Huh....
Continuing on, I wrote how that belief has shown up in my life. Crazy, dude.
Finally, I was to write examples of how I am NOT like that at all and then finish up with the statement, "I AM ________." In the blank goes the opposite of the belief I developed from that particular childhood scene.
Without going into detail, my memory was about a time that one of my cousins said something to me which I apparently interpreted as meaning that I am INFERIOR. Which explains a lot. Who knew?
Anyway, I ended up having to write, "I AM WORTHY."
Now, here's the kicker. Apparently I am responsible for developing that particular view of myself because as a child I saw my "experiences as fact." I was not able to "separate actual events from my interpretation of those events." WHAT?! I can't keep blaming my parents, cousins, so-called friends, etc. for any of this?! (Nope, they are responsible for their actions but I am responsible for my interpretation). Apparently, as we become adults, we should "reevaluate the beliefs we've held onto for so long, the ones that our inner critics repeat endlessly in the back of our minds." (The quotes are from Mari's book).
No wonder I tried to be so careful of the things I said to my girls while they were growing up!
I could spend the next 100 days on this exercise alone! The good news here is that I can recognize these beliefs for what they are and move on towards HEALTH AND HAPPINESS! (Lucky me since I'm so good at letting things go...NOT!).
Since Blogger messed us up pretty bad last night and today, I am EXTENDING THE CONTEST for Mari's book until midnight SATURDAY.
All you have to do is leave a comment stating that you would like to enter the giveaway. It's that simple.
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