Tuesday, April 26, 2011

U is for Undermine

I tend to undermine myself when it comes to my weight loss efforts.  Things will be going well and I will convince myself to have one little tiny piece of something of the sugary goodness variety and BAM!  My refusal to eat sugar takes it in the back and dies.  Once that happens, I further undermine my efforts by using logical reasoning skills.  “Oh come on.  One bite isn’t going to bother anything;  Pul-ease, maybe you’re just meant to be fat;  Maybe your thin days are simply over;  Who really cares what you look like; You’re too old to lose weight now…”  all the while shoving candy or cookies or ice cream down my throat.   Seriously, I don’t even pay attention to how much time passes by while I’m rationalizing my sugar habit.  Oh and crabs?  Same thing.  I’ll eat and eat and eat them.  

I am hopeful that Hubs won’t undermine my efforts.  Not that he does this maliciously but he will do some little things that he SHOULD know will undermine this most difficult yet necessary endeavor.  For example, he brought a store bought carrot cake into the house for Easter dinner in case anyone (guess who) was not interested in my sugar free cheesecake.  He assured me he would take whatever was left uneaten (‘U’ word) into work, yet it still sits in my fridge.  The little bit of leftover candy is still sitting here too.  So far, it’s not been a big deal.  I have successfully stayed away from that evil deliciousness.  I did have to talk to myself about the carrot cake though—“I see it there but you may NOT have any so get it out of your mind.”  And, poof!  Out it went.  Of course, it’s only been one day.  

I am also hopeful that my acute awareness of this ability to undermine myself will be one of the keys to losing this massive amount of blubber  and keeping it off BECAUSE the number that registers on the scale is UNGODLY—another ‘U’ word.  At least my former cravings and the foods that appease them are not ubiquitous (yet another ‘U’ word) this time.  Not only are they not ever-present, but my cravings have unquestionably (clever, eh?) diminished.  The only concern I have is whether or not this is an undeviating (what?!  Another one?!) situation or will I, sooner or later, revert back to my usual (!!!) attempts of undermining.   Only time will tell.  And I hope it tells quickly because, if this doesn’t work, I just may become unhinged.      






This is the 21st day (well, it's MY 21st day, it's really the 22nd day --I should be on 'V'-- but I took a break on Saturday to be with the family) of the A-Z Blog Challenge for the month of April. The hardest letters for me are within these last days...thankfully, we're almost FINISHED!  I just might make it!


25 comments:

  1. I read the first sentence and thought, 'that's me!' We made a cake for Easter and I had one small piece. There is a lot left over so yesterday I cut off huge slices and gave to all the workmen here building our patio. I considered this a win for all of us : )

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  2. Your dear man sounds like what Bud would do for me....he says he loves me as I am, no matter. But big whooptie do if I don't like myself in the mirror!! I tend to do a weigh in and see I lost a pound or two, and then........bam......I eat my chocolate covered raisins for being such a good loser. It's an Unending challenge.


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  3. Wow! I could have written that first paragraph! My worst 'undermine,' and I know it's not intentional, is when we're trapped in a car on a long drive somewhere and my husband sets a bag of chips between us. He always looks puzzled when I tell him to get those chips on the other side of him and don't let me see them again! or if he stops at the gas station and brings out a dark chocolate Dove bar.

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  4. Well, you've had a great time playing around with the letter 'U' and you've successfully hit the nail on the head for a large percentage of us...I, too, constantly undermine my efforts to lose weight and my reasoning is so similar to yours it's uncanny!

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  5. Joyce- I saw the cake and it looked delicious! I'm glad I wasn't there because I'm certain it would have thrown me right off the wagon!

    Anni- I've done the very same thing.

    Judy- Are we married to the same man? LOL

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  6. Desiree-Thank you! Maybe the question now is, why do we do this to ourselves?

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  7. I am sure you will make it to the end of your challenge, having got this far :)

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  8. Lindy- I sure hope so! I still don't know what possessed me to do this. LOL

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  9. Lots of U words here to describe this undesirable process!

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  10. Oh EN, you have no idea how much I can relate! Ugh! (hey, another u word!) Keep up the fight though -- you already know you can do it! :)

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  11. Sugar is like slug bait. Very attractive and it tastes good but it plumps up those cells till they want to explode. I always lose weight if I stay away from it.

    Last year we had to change our lifestyle (partner's cholesterol) and all summer it was veg and fruit. I like the effect so much I continued. To date, I've lost 40 lbs. Not to say that there aren't some bends in the road. But this is the last time. It's not a diet. It's my life.

    Good luck. And don't be mad at yourself.

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  12. Betty- LOL Undesirable is right!

    Jessica- Love your u word...LOL I hope it's for real this time. It's so frustrating!

    Stephanie- So far it's been ok--not too hard not stressful. I'm just hoping that it continues this way. I'm so good at ruining my own efforts.

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  13. Great writing (and use of U words)! I think you're right that being able to recognize when you're using "rationalization" to undermine your weightloss goals is the key to losing weight. Most people are completely oblivious to that sort of thing. My motto is: never believe everything you think.

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  14. Also...if it helps ease the guilt, I also went overboard on carrot cake.

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  15. Kara-That's a GREAT motto! I will adopt it as mine too, if you don't mind!

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  16. Stay strong. No undermining or sabateurs who want to keep you off track!

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  17. I totally related to this post! The carrot cake would have been shouting at me from the fridge and I would have had to shove some ear plugs in to stop myself from hearing it shout "eat me!".

    All the 'u' words made me laugh out loud.

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  18. Carmie-I'm hanging in!

    lyndylou-So far, it's still untouched. Wish me luck! Glad you got a laugh! I'm trying to keep the humor going!

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  19. Oh boy, after reading this, I can see that the letter U is not doing me any favors either!

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  20. That is me right now!! I have so many sweets left over.

    Susan

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  21. blue-Oh no! Not you too!

    Susan- Just say NO! LOL

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  22. In my experience, if I can stay away from the sugar for a few days the cravings will go away. For me they get out of hand when I get stressed out (and then I just get addicted to the sweets.) At that point, it becomes an awareness that I just have to quit them for a few days and it will get better. Try it and see if it works for you, too:-)

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  23. I have the largest Sweet Tooth in Colorado and on top of that..No Willpower!
    I have gained 15 lbs in the last 10 years...for my 5'2 (on tippy toes) inch frame that is a lot
    I used to have great metabolism, could eat anything, and not gain weight..now, I look at something and it goes right to my hips!
    I would have eaten the entire Carrot Cake, so I
    commend your self reserve and will power.

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  24. It's hard. Weight loss, life style changes, dieting...it's all hard but you are doing it Pam. You are doing it.
    Take care and have a blessed evening.

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  25. Your attitude rocks! You're so funny. Isn't it terrible when we undermine our own efforts? I just hate that.

    I'm visiting from WWWL.

    Cathy Kennedy, Children's Author
    The Tale of Ole Green Eyes

    Read today's post...Mommy is Trying to Exercise Right Now

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