Saturday, July 9, 2011
Freaking Frustration Hurdles
I've secluded myself to an extent because of the excess weight. I've missed out on some things and others, well, I probably wouldn't have enjoyed them even if I had my 20something body back. The point is, however, that I have avoided some social situations due to the weight issue.
The good news is that I have made some decisions that seem to be permanent...this time. But I can completely understand how people get so frustrated that they give up. It's a constant struggle and we, as humans, do get tired. And a daily battle is exhausting. Especially when the dang scale seems to move so much slower going down than up. Which means we add waiting to the equation and proceed to get tired of that also.
Oh and goodness me! Let's NOT forget that annoyingashell little inner voice to whom we give permission to say things to us like: "Are you kidding? This is too hard. Just stay the way you are. It's so much easier to leave well enough alone." It will even remind us from time to time that we can't do this anyway or it's taking too long that it just isn't going to happen or consider your AGE...anything to make us believe losing weight is nothing less than an insurmountable obstacle.
And that's just what some of us do to ourselves. It's a fight all the way to the finish whether we battle ourselves or others who are not exactly supportive. This time, I am determined to fight it all the way. There is some frustration here but I have not given up. I have not succumbed. I have stuck to my plan. I may very well be more stubborn than that annoyingashell inner voice of mine. And I believe that I will be frustrating my frustration instead of it frustrating me. (Yeah, I know. But you know what I mean).
So I will continue to walk hand-in-hand with daily walking, daily Pilates (this was created in hell, wasn't it?), daily recording of caloric intake, daily drinking of the water and I'll even walk with the frustration and inner negativity---but the latter two? I plan to kick their asses.